Today’s blog is more for me than for anyone else, but since ya’ll are my friends, I thought I’d let you in on where my heart and mind are this morning.

As I have adjusted to life as a stay-at-home mom, I have begun to pursue some new interests and some old interests that have been neglected for years, even decades.  One of the new interests is the pinning extravaganza known as pinterest. And one of my renewed interests from my childhood is sewing!  These two interests go together so well.  I have lots of new ideas of things I’d like to make, not just in the sewing realm, but in the DIY world as well.  I have completed a few projects so far.

My first sewing project was a dress for Janie, and my most recent project was matching aprons for my mom and Carl’s mom.  The dress was a great welcome back to the sewing world.  Lots of straight seams and an easy pattern.  The aprons required a little more skill.  As I stitched the bias tape to the rounded edges of the aprons, I made many mistakes.  At this point I became very familiar with my seam ripper. I was very frustrated at times, but was satisfied with my result.  However, they are definitely both “one-of-a-kind” aprons.  It is mostly the stitching that makes them unique. {smile}

So what does a renewed love of sewing have to do with trusting God?  Well, thanks for asking, it has more to do with it than I realized at the time I was stitching the aprons together.

As some of you know, Janie Lou was born with hydronephrosis.  This is a fancy way of saying she had an enlarged kidney.  God chose to knit her together in this way.  On her three-month birthday, she had this kidney removed and has been healthy ever since.

On Thursday of this week, I went in for a routine ultrasound and found out that God has decided to make some unique stitches as He knits our new baby together.  Hergycub 2.0 has been diagnosed with hydronephrosis on both kidneys.  As I have prayed over this for the past couple of days, I have been reminded of my favorite passage in the Bible, Psalm 139.

Verses 13 & 14 say:

 13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

On October 1st I was teaching on this very passage at a women’s fair in Wichita, Kansas.  Here’s is a short excerpt from that talk.

“There is not a holy conveyor belt up in heaven with Mrs. Potato Head pieces on it.  God doesn’t have angels assembling babies up in heaven…”Oh, let’s throw on some lips, and how about this nose!  Don’t forget the CRAZY EYES!”

NO!  That’s not how it happens.  God carefully and purposefully knit YOU and ME together in our mothers’ womb. This baby that is growing inside of me is not the result of an assembly line.  God has begun to knit and will continue to knit this little one together perfectly, just as He sees fit.

God didn’t mess up on you! You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Even something like an enlarged kidney can bring glory and honor to him.  So let’s choose today to CELEBRATE how God created us rather than criticize Him because He didn’t make us look like a supermodel.  Let’s look ourselves in the mirror and then look up to the heavens and shout “Yes!”  Let’s tell God what an amazing job he did creating us.”

As I spoke these words, I had no idea that as God knitting together a baby with two enlarged kidneys.  So now I have to ask myself, do I believe the words I spoke to those women.  Do I believe them now that they apply so personally to me?

My answer is, “Yes.”  And when I don’t, I ask God to help me believe.  The time I spent preparing for that women’s fair in Wichita was actually what God used to prepared my heart for the news I received on Thursday.

God never lets His Word return void.  Spending time studying His Word is never a waste.  The time we spend not only reading, but meditating on His Word, is what transfers it from our minds to heart.  It is what sustains us through the trials of life.

God is knitting our new little one together with His perfect love and care.  God doesn’t own a seam ripper…He will not mess up.  Our prayer is that God will correct this issue and the kidneys will heal before this baby is born.  But if God uses this to teach us to trust His decisions in our lives, we are willing and ready to walk down that road.

If you would like to join us in prayer, we would greatly appreciate that.  We would be honored to have heaven bombarded on behalf of our child.

Today, I am full of hope.  Clinging to the promises that God is love.  I remember the late Spike White saying, “God doesn’t make no junk.” Many of you have faced much more serious trials than this and come through the fire with a deeper faith.  My prayer for the baby is complete healing. My prayer for myself is that I will look more like Jesus as a result of this trial.

Thanks for walking through this journey with us.  I would love to pray for you.  Please let me know how I can best do that.  You can contact me at faith@faithklein.com.

8 comments on “Trusting God

  1. I’m praying for you and the new little one! Having faith on your behalf. You’re right…he can be trusted. He’ll be glorified and lifted up thru this child’s life.

  2. Faith – thank you for your honesty & congratulations on 2.0! I hadn’t heard the news yet and I’m just elated for you!

    It wasn’t a coincidence that I stopped over today – I’m not sure if you’re familiar with Angie & Todd Smith (Selah lead singer) & their trial with their daughter Audrey. I met Angie last year at the Relevant Conference and saw her again just last week at Women of Faith. She has an incredible testimony of walking through fears and balancing it with God’s Word & His faithfulness. She said something similar to what you’re saying here – and probably something we’ve all said at one time or another – “do I believe God IS who He says He is?” Her book & blog (Bring the Rain) are a beautiful result of God walking them through a very difficult time. She has another book “What Women Fear,” which is excellent as well. The incourage community is going through the book in its Bloom Book Club.

    We will be holding you up in prayer and believing God is in control and holds you all close – I know a songwriter or two who would say “In the blessings, in the flames – “He will pull you through – that’s what He does for you.” 🙂

    Love what you said here: “The time I spent preparing for that women’s fair in Wichita was actually what God used to prepared my heart for the news I received on Thursday.” This just spoke so deeply to my heart, because I’ve had a similar experience. On our way out to Yellowstone, I read Mary Beth Chapman’s book “Choosing to See.” A few days later, we were watching as our young child was badly hurt in an accident. We didn’t lose him like the Chapman’s lost Maria Sue, but having read that seemed to prepare me better for what was to come. What we’ve gone through with Max these last two months has strengthened us, our faith, allowed us to witness to others in a real, transforming way. And, we’ve chosen to see the gift even in the suffering. I agree, as you said, that we are believing for complete healing and to look more like Jesus through the trial.

    Our love & prayers to you
    ~ Mela & family

  3. speakinginfaith

    Thanks for your prayers and your love.

    hugs to you!

  4. speakinginfaith

    Thanks, Mela, for the reply and thanks for stopping by. I know you have grown so much during the past couple of months and see God faithfully take care of Max. I know God will do His will. Thanks for your support and your prayers. I appreciate your friendship.

    Hugs!

  5. speakinginfaith

    Thanks, Mela, for the reply and thanks for stopping by. I know you have grown so much during the past couple of months and see God faithfully take care of Max. I know God will do His will. Thanks for your support and your prayers. I appreciate your friendship.

    Hugs!

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