One of the songs I've been singing recently in my heart is an old spiritual called “Give me Jesus.” A couple days ago, I woke up and the house was quiet. Carl was out of town, so I sat down at the piano, and began to play and sing this song with all my heart. The simple words “in the morning when I rise, give me Jesus” were the prayer of my heart that morning. The second verse simply states, “when I am alone, give me Jesus.” And the final verse brings us to a kingdom perspective that is so easy to lose, “And when I come to die, give me Jesus.”
The reality that one day our lives will end here on earth has hit very close to home this year with the loss of my grandma. Each time I stand in worship and think about this fact, I can't help but tear up with the overwhelming truth that one day I won't sit in the piano room singing to Jesus; but I will fall on my face at the feet of Jesus singing praises to Him all day long in heaven. And that was the truth that was overwhelming me as I sang these words. I began to tear up and could barely get through the song. At that moment nothing mattered to me except praising Jesus.
As I read through Luke 9 this morning, I was reminded of that moment.
23 Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. 24 For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it. 25 What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self?
This set of verses struck a chord with me as I think about my wish list for me, my family and our new baby. How often in a week do I think about the material things that I want? How often do I see something that is much more a want than a need and attempt to convince myself that maybe it is a need? How often do I get caught up in what I can pursue on this earth to make more money, make my name known or provide more for the little one that is about to enter this world?
So as I read this passage this morning, my heart was softened again to the truth that all I really need is Jesus. We see in the first 17 verses of chapter 9 that He able to provide for our needs with ‘leftovers' remaining. So I can stop striving to gain more in this world and just pursue Jesus.
The chorus of this song says,
“Give me Jesus.
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
but give me Jesus.”
This is the song in my heart today, and I pray that this will be the song in your heart, too.